Losing Joe – Letters from Heaven

Elaine M. Suarez
6 min readAug 10, 2023

Chapter 18

On April 1, 2023, we moved into our new home. It was a move we were not prepared for, nor was it our choice. Backtrack, a month earlier, I received a phone call from the owner of the condominium we had been renting for the past eight years. He told me the sister of his wife was going through a divorce and she was part owner of the condo and she was moving back. I dropped the phone as if it had some sort of disease. He kept apologizing, I had not connected the dots until he told me we had to move out. We had 60 days to find a new place, but that was not the worst part. The worse was thinking we had to pack all Joe’s belongings in his bedroom and then decide where everything was going to be placed in the new house (once we found it). This move meant we had to leave Joe’s bedroom, a place he had slept and spent all of his time the past eight years. His bedroom had become my sanctuary, my place of peace, my solitude, and now I have to leave it all behind? All I could do was cry until I couldn’t cry no more.

I began looking for a new home, but didn’t have much luck the first couple of days. Then I came across a cute 3-b/r house downtown. We met the owner and loved the house, but the rent was higher than I expected. He negotiated a price and that evening we gave him a deposit. It took me two weeks to find it, much sooner than expected. I called my landlord…

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Elaine M. Suarez

I am a mother of 3, and a survivor of child loss. I write about my uninvited journey in grief after the sudden loss of my son, Joseph. His life ended to soon.